Thanks Sister... Yes I think that I am facing my fears and currently all kind of things are opening up in my head..really. I appreciate your thoughts and your new wisdom.

Sunrise and Sister, I think that I would welcome a different relationship with this person that would be less time and less intense. I think that she may not accept that so I might need to just let it go. We shall see.

Sunrise, Yes this is an internet friendship and we were both moderators on a board in the past and have maintained a friendship via primarily instant messaging. There are others from that experience that still are in touch but less frequently and that does work well. I hope in time to be able to do that.

There are some things that are not so healthy about this deal so a little distance I think would be good... though I do feel at a loss. I think in time, as I fill up my space (and experience what I need to) I will feel more liberated. I have had to encourage the separation and that has been the painful thing but have hopes to not lose it all together.. and as you said Sunrise... after I get some more work under my belt...

She called my pdoc.. a male dog... did not sit well with me and certainly does not much to help facilitate the work that I wish to do. I need to focus and this is the person I need to trust right now... and do work with ... my pdoc. That is not all there is to it but ... that is rather significant.

We are back moderating that board (though much less busy now) but I am less enthusiastic and think that I will let that go shortly. Another separation... on the horizon.

Thanks you too.

Alameda... welcome home. Hope you said hello to Goofy for me... will stay tuned for you.

Thanks all. You are ALL very helpful to me and I appreciate it.