So here is the deal,
I am aware that I have an aversion to being out of my routine in terms of travel. Distance, length of time, location they all matter and impede my wanting to make any kind of plan outside of my county and, at best the one adjacent to that. The problem is that, even when I don't have any immediate plans in the horizon I dread. I think "what's going to happen when my husband wants to go to x or y? Will I be able to get the kids anywhere fun outside of our city for any length of time? What if I panic? You get the idea...

The problem is that it is NON STOP. I currently take 50 mgs of sertraline but feel that, though im not as edgy, it does not do much. I am seeing a psychiatrist who feels that I have to face things and that will take care of the constant ruminating but I don't feel it is as simple as she makes it seem. I want these changes and notice their effects probably more than any of those around me. Any thoughts, words of wisdom or encouragement will be greatly appreciated!
~Oceanalla