You have many issues. Why do you not have regular therapy? You can find a time and a therapist that your insurance covers. You can.

Keep LCM.

You need a real therapist- like the rest of us do - and most of us have.

You come here when you have a crisis- almost always related to LCM - and get a gazillion responses. You ignore almost all of the ones that address your need for a real therapist and keep on posting about how bad you feel.

I get bad feelings. 1000%.

A therapist will help you. LCM is still there. Best of both worlds.

When/if you finally get a therapist, the PC community will stand up, cheer, and salute you!