Nate,

I tried to write a reply to your post earlier, but it didn't appear for some reason.

Basically what I said was that as long as you continue to believe that male models are "whole" because of their looks and you are incomplete because of yours, you will continue to suffer.

This is sad, but true.

I'd love to be able to convince you to change your mind about your belief, but unfortunately I don't have the power to do that.

The only way you're going to be able to get out of this "hell" is to change your underlying belief about looks and wholeness. Are you open to doing that?

I really hope that something will happen that will cause you to gain some perspective, shed the false beliefs and experience some joy and happiness in your life.

All the best,

Cal