I'm sorry for what you have gone through, but glad you have reached the point you have. (((hugs))) While I have always had an issue with those types of groups I realize they have helped many ppl reach good places in their lives.

Why not ask the universe of your energy, the energy of your universe, to reveal itself to you, to make it real, so that you can hold on to what is there, to have a Higher Power that will always be there, helping you through?

TC