Kowareta,

I sense a lot of pain and loneliness in your post.

I think one thing that would help you and help others help you, would be to start separating the different issues that you're dealing with, address them one by one and start putting them into the form of a question. This gives everyone a target to aim for.

Maybe your questions are things like this?:

1) How can I re-establish my friendship with my former best friend?

2) How can I get a boyfriend?

3) How can I get a guy to know that I like him?

Each one of these could be a different post with replies, questions and lots of back and forth to help you address each issue individually.

We can't give you the right answer to every question 100% of the time, but we have a better shot at it this way.

Hope that helps.

Cal