You could, if you tried. I recently helped my cousin find a T in Boston and there were MANY options-- many more than in my area! My cousin has no job and no money, but we were able to find her a T who accepts almost nothing per session. If your parents pay for your LC and your LC says you also need a T, your parents might be willing to pay for it. If not, use the $10 you pay for a bottle of alcohol and spend it on therapy. If you can find a way to get booze that you can't really afford, you can find a way to do the same thing for a T-- if you really want to. Or, you can find an agency that provides free therapy-- there are several that provide it free to persons under age 25. And it seems you spend a great deal of time isolated in your room, drinking or trying to distract yourself or just pass the time-- you could be using one of those hours a week to see a T. Or, you could do online therapy. It may not be as good as in person therapy, but it's certainly better than no therapy. It's not "easy" for any of us to pay for long-term therapy, fit therapy on top of a 60 hour work week, or deal with all of the emotions that therapy brings up. It's not always something we "want" to do. But it really is the best way to get better. It's the best way we can invest in ourselves and our futures.