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Old Feb 08, 2015, 11:51 PM
Joheishan Joheishan is offline
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Originally Posted by Neirin View Post
I can't feel anything. Literally nothing. I'm not even sad or miserable... I wish I would at least feel some negative emotions but I don't. I'm thinking about self-harming again because pain is still better than nothing. But I don't think I actually care enough to actually do it.

I have no idea what the point of me writing here even is.
I want to get out of this nothingness.
Reminds me of the song 'One' by Metallica, that described exactly how I felt at times.

'I can't remember anything, can't tell or this is true or dream.
Deep down inside I feel a scream, this terrible silence stops with me'

The only thing that got me through was realizing that most of these feelings are chemical.
Matter controls mind.

I've spent about about 3 years of my life either feeling nothing (I've become so numb; Linkin Park) or being completely unhinged that the only thing that got me through was

Mind controls matter
Refuse to give in, spend (not waste) your time looking for your chemical balance and you WILL feel better...
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Thanks for this!
Neirin