It's my birthday And I just wanted to ask;

How bad are birthdays for you?

I never want to celebrate my birthdays beacause I don't feel there's anything to celebrate other than the day I was doomed.
I get cooped up in a room with all the people who trigger my worst possible memories.

Lately birthdays are a little better since I spent most of my time with my sister's kids and just zone out everyone else.

The only worse day is christmass because I have to travel 200 miles outside my comfort zone to my parents' house.