As most of your threads seem to take a similar turn, and this is not something that happens with most posters here, you seem to be unconsciously replaying the same pattern.

There seems to me to be a certain masochistic impulse in these threads. You come on and post something-- a drunk post with emotional, inflammatory, and/or triggering content, and if you don't get a response, you post again. Or else you post something about your LCM that is sure to get people going.

People begin to respond. If they are not already frustrated with you, you dig in your heels and reject any helpful suggestions they have to make. They get more frustrated, and the pile-on continues. You feel victimized. Eventually, one or two people post something more compassionate to soothe the wound.

Lather, rinse, repeat. I know I sure wouldn't keep coming back if I was lambasted as often as you are.