Growli, you may need your LC right now but she is gone, out of the country, on her vacation. She is unreachable. So, you need to cope with it, find a way to get a grip. You can't continue this drinking and poor decision making every day until she returns. You drink when shes in town and when your seeing her on a regular schedule, so I guess drinking while shes gone "makes sense to you" Regardless your going to wake up with a hangover maybe and certainly more self esteem and self worth issues and then how terrible your going to feel when you see how angry LC is going to be when you tell her.

I certainly won't bother typing anything about a T. That's a dead horse that has been beaten to death so bad there isn't even dust left.

I think its wonderful that your worried about your friend, maybe she can come stay in your room to stay warm?