I've been drinking way too much lately. I completely stopped for months, over a year when I was depressed but since I had a manic episode and haven't really come back down it's gotten out of hand. I will drink twelve to twenty drinks in a day and keep drinking into the next day and then feel very nervous. I know it doesn't help and makes things worse but I can't slow down and stop when it's like this. I've been here before and I know it's a dangerous place to be but I can't get out. I'll stop for a few days or even a week or two and then bam, I'm out drinking like a fish and everything is a mess. I'm on lithium too so I know it doesn't work right when I drink. I see my doctor next week and I'm going to have to tell him what's up now. I'm not sure if it's the drinking or the bipolar that's the problem now.