Hello Angelwngs25, welcome to Psych Central.

I know it can feel bad to end up in hospital but try and remember that hospital is a safe place where you can get stable again. You had a couple of short visits, this does not mean that it will happen again in the future and even if it does happen, it means you will get the treatment you need. See if you can get an appointment with your psychiatrist if you feel your mental health is getting worse, this may be an indication that an adjustment to medication is needed or psychotherapy.