you'd be amazed what people will do for money. Ever listen around at a teacher's lounge? Or sit with a group of mental health professionals when no clients are around? I'm not saying that none of T's care, but i think it's optimistic to think most do.

caring when i am there to be cared about? Hmm... that is a good question. First i return again to my definition which is not a limited entity. When I say to someone, I care about you, i mean the larger thing.

In session i feel he pays close attention, he listens and acts accepting and nonjudgemental. He asks questions and sometimes mkaes suggestions. Is that caring?

One problem i have is that i do not cry in front of people. i do not outwardly display many emotions. A lot of their "caring techniques" are tied into affect. If you cry the tone changes and maybe you get some minimal physical contact. But if you scream inside then you get advice. Is "caring" tied to the affect of the client? Is it then caring or sympathy? EMpathy is tied to the situation and information not to the affect... is empathy the same as caring?

he wants a relationship with me..?? i suppose you could call it that.. it's some sort of working collaboration process. I don't know that he wants anything either way.

any maybe you are right. Maybe i am not there for anything. It's probably been a bad idea from the start. No..you *are* right. I shouldn't be in therapy.