I'm just so miserable right now. I just started attending school again...I'm not receiving financial aid this semester so I have to use my credit card to pay for it but I don't have enough. I texted my brother about it while walking to the bus stop...he said he'll pay for the other half with his tax return but I have to get a job and pay him and stop using everything as an excuse. I know I will be completely miserable if I start working with my social anxiety but I have no other options with me and my family having financial problems... I started feeling overwhelmed with everything and started breaking down while walking. I had trouble breathing and started crying. I felt so embarrassed and disgusted of myself since I was walking by people in the street...all of my problems just started overwhelming in my head...there were many times I just wanted to walk into the middle of the street...

I'm finding many reasons to let go of it all. I can't find any reason right now to keep trying.