You're looking for praise/approval/etc.,OUTSIDE
yourself,you need to feel good about yourself,and to
do that you need some self-esteem---note it is called
SELF-esteem,not OTHER-esteem.It has to come
from the inside. Please invest in dear self,and get
some books on self-esteem,by the acknowledged
master on subject,Nathaniel Branden. I highly
recommend "Honoring The Self," and "The Six
Pillars Of Self-Esteem". Trust me,when you feel
better about self,the anger will lessen,maybe not
completely,but a lot better than now.