Yeah same. I usually like people who I know are way out of my league and could never get, or if some poor sucker ever does like me, I just think no way and won't even give them a chance. I always have someone to obsess over but just as a fantasy. No one would put up with me anyway so why bother even trying? I don't want to ever rely on anyone else again either, I'm too used to being alone and I'd only end up getting hurt anyway. At least my rockstar "husband" can't dump me for someone else.