I struggle similarly. My boyfriend told me the other day. he says 'you just give up'

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Hi there Jakers,

I think that maybe you do have it in you to change, but you have (very understandably) lost confidence in your docs and therapists. It sounds like you arrived with depression and were treated with meds and therapy. Even though that's what almost always happens, I think it's a terrible way to go. It's risky for you, not likely to work, and, incidentally, very expensive. Here's what I think is the best plan:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

Note that it is important to first check for the many medical/nutritional issues that might be a problem. There are many things to try that are known to help depression which are just great for your health anyway. Doesn't it make sense to try these? Especially since you are having trouble with giving things up, I really suggest you try "SNAP CLUB" described at the top of this thread:

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

It is super easy and fun to do, it usually works and you usually get positive results quickly (1-2 days sometimes immediately) and if it works it will help you take more steps on your upward path. As soon as you find something that's REALLY helping, I think your problem with patience may disappear. I found that when something really works, it's SUCH a relief that motivation to keep doing it is not a problem at all.

- vital