I saw his wife today, by accident. I was late and clashed with one of her clients/patients/students. I don't know what to do now, I'm in complete pieces - the reality of seeing her feels unbearable. I have been feeling really bad about my feelings towards him anyway and have stopped talking about it in therapy but it's been so painful recently, and now this. Can I stop now? would it be stupid to just stop... I can't see anyway through this. I'm so alone, I can't cope with how painful it is... not just the wife bit but the whole thing about loving someone who doesn't and won't love me back, or who isn't even mine to love anyway. And I can't bear the thought of having to talk about it with him in therapy, I honestly never thought it would be this awful.