I have been in the psych ward twice because of suicidal thinking...didn't think I could keep myself from acting on it. Sometimes I do feel like its something I'd get judged for and such but I try and keep in mind it was actually the responsible thing for my health and nothing to be ashamed of, acting on those thoughts would be worse.

I am not certain I will never need to be hospitalized again, in fact I kind of figure it will happen...but I try not to worry about it and just keep it in my mind as a back up plan if the suicidal ideation gets stuck in my head again. Just keep in mind you aren't a lesser person because of any of that.