The car thing is *so* annoying, but otherwise not a big deal. I found a new mirror from a junk yard on eBay for $40 and I think we can figure out how to swap it out. There’s one highway on-ramp that is pretty scary without mirrors, it turns out, so I may find a different way home tomorrow.

This guy is very, very relaxed. Too relaxed. The disorganization is astonishing. I learned today that we needed to order a bunch of equipment to go with what I have been working on – and it all has to ship by the end of day Thursday. I also learned that what I am responsible for shipping is close to double what I had expected. I *think* I can finish in time, but he told someone else that I would be doing a massive upgrade of a mission critical system on Weds???

I see now that all those emails he never sent had to do with his general approach. I don’t understand how someone can manage a department this way.

I was telling my BF tonight that I really like being a contractor as opposed to an employee. It just feels different – don’t ask me why or how. This chaos bothers me, but it would bother me ten times as much if I were an employee.

The project managers sounds like they just have a completely different job. Different boss, different work, different office set up – and probably plenty of work to do, much of which requires social interaction.

Do you think you would be happier if you were working in the office instead of from home?

It’s funny, but I think most of the self-employed/business owners I’ve known have had really positive experiences. I have one friend who is always starting businesses and then running them into the ground – but even he seems to have figured out how to avoid that One of my friends takes six weeks off from his business every summer to go sailing - he can do enough work on the road/ocean to keep things afloat (ha ha).

I also still am not sure what I want to be doing. I’m jealous of people like my BF, who just has one thing that he does well, and he’s very fixated on it. I like to do everything! I don’t mind doing this for a little bit, to pay the bills, save some money, and maybe figure out what I want to launch next…

It’s so ridiculous, but I feel wiped out from the tiny bit I *am* working. I haven’t done anything to move any other business options forward.

I hope you are over your chocolate withdrawal and keeping temptation at bay! I was surprised to step on the scale and see that I hadn’t gained any weight given the lousy way I’ve been eating – but I shoveled 40 minutes tonight, so I guess that is burning calories! Is your ankle feeling better?