I was hospitalized 14 times and tried many medications, over about a decade. But when I got the diagnosis of Dissociative Disorder and a good therapist helped me discover my Inner Child problems I was able to start working on myself, learned how to help my inner child instead of fighting it. I never had to go to the hospital again.

Please don't judge yourself. If you had a physical problem and had to go to the hospital several times, or many, you wouldn't judge yourself, would you? You would just find out all you could about your condition and do what you need to do. Have patience and compassion for yourself and find out all you can about what is hurting.

I will even admit that i regard the hospital staff as my most valued "family" as they cared so much more than my real family ever did, and have always been there for me. That's the way I really feel and don't feel a bit ashamed about it.