We are about to have another Air Show in my area. We have one every year.

Last year, when the fighter jets would fly over my place, I would run into the bathroom shaking and crying. When the big transport planes roared over my place, I would find myself shaking and crying again. Over and over....for two days of the event.

It's going to happen again this weekend. I can't really get away from it. And I guess I *really* should just allow myself to experience it and try not to freak out. That's the therapeutic way, right??

But the noise and the beauty of those planes.....it brings me to tears. And it, of course, sends me back to the plane crash that I worked on. And the noise is so loud. It just makes me BAWL.

So.....I should get outside and watch them, do you think?? I couldn't go to the actual Air Show....I think I would have a breakdown in front of too many people!!! These incredible planes fly right over the top of my place....it's so awesome!!!!!

But the noise....and seeing those formations of planes coming towards me and then straight over top of me.......it makes me CRY like a baby. And I have to run to the bathroom and plug my ears as I cry and shake.

Ugh, I don't know what to do. I should MAKE myself sit through it, right??