Sorry your going through this and wish I had adequate words to end your suffering. I can relate if u dont mind me saying . Your story is your own tho. You need to be heard. Listen to and comforted with understanding . Embrace freedom and rise above all the tragedy affecting you.
Nothing will be the same , its true. But you can be a new you.stronger and soon youll see you were made for more than all these ashes. Be strong please.