I dont know what to do right now. I got overwhelmed by making breakfast and taking my meds, I had to call a crisis support line to help me take my meds!

My pdocs say I should be in hospital (voluntarily). My supports say it is up to me. The problem is I have a big wedding to go to this weekend. Its 5 hours away and my partner and I were going to make a holiday of it. I am so stressed about that, not to mention the work, uni and horse stuff some of which I HAVE to do today but I just cant stop bawling.

My mood has been consistantly under 3/10 for a month, I have crying spells every day, I am behind in the housework and have trouble feeding myself. Work, uni and horse commitments are being left and I NEVER EVER leave my horse commitments, I feel so guilty. I dont know what to do.

Just so stressed and after my latest blood results I know that is super super bad for me.