Partner and some friends are convinced a few days away is all I need to be feeling better. I wish it was that simple, I bloody hope it is if Im suffering through these days needlessly. 2 more nights. I can do it but how will i effect those around me? My partner has already done the dishes and is starting on dinner cos I just start crying at the thought of it. The food is not to my dietry needs but I cant really complain having him done so much for me. I hate that he has to look after me, I hate being incapable.

I dont know what I am going to do about uni and stuff cos I broke it down today into little piles and was overwhelmed at the first hurdle. I cant even breathe when I think of it.

I guess I've pretty much decided that we are going on the trip, and I just have to keep it together best I can til then. But is that worth giving up the career and uni opportunities?? Ugh no.