Ugh. Just a little update. I've spoken to learning support at my college, I meet with a lady there every Tuesday and I've just finished a meeting. She hasn't even been made aware that there is a meeting going on, and when you inform a student with mental issues that they're to come in for a disciplinary hearing and then not inform learning support at the college... I really do wonder about the staff here. My progress tutor still hasn't replied to me or rang my mum like she said she would.

Learning support is chasing it all up now and I'll get told what happens and what my progress tutor etc has to say.

It's gotten to the point where 1) I am more focused on what's going on staff/system/jumping-through-hoops stuff, I'm less focused on calming myself down to make it into college and focus on my studies. This is ridiculous. And 2) I'm so pissed off with the way they're doing things. I don't care about why there is a hearing, I understand why and I accept it, I'm more pissed off out of my mind because they haven't kept me in the loop aside from a formal and clearly pre-written letter, they haven't kept learning support up to date, they haven't kept my therapist up to date (who visits/deals with other students at the college regularly) and most of all, they haven't done what they said they would (ring my mum, keep me in the loop and they originally told me it was "just a meeting" to "see how I'm doing".

I'm at the end of my tether and so is my mum. And I am most likely going to get kicked out of college and the funny part will be, I won't even be told I've been kicked out, knowing my college and the staff here.

Honestly, if anyone is in the north of England and is looking for colleges to go to, message me so I can tell you which one NOT to go to. I'd say the name here but I worry about privacy and all that.