I haven't had a drink in a while since I tend to overdo it. I was self medicating for a long time and alcohol is/was a big problem for me. Now its a mixed bag. I haven't had the craving for a while intensely enough to go out and actually buy a bottle and just DRINK.

Every day I get up I'm like screw it, today I will have a drink, but I never do. I fight with myself and feel through the pain. I am in intense emotional pain right now and I feel that drinking will just make it worse. I'd rather FEEL all of it, then numb it.