Sometimes you just need to hear it from another bipolar sufferer. It's not you. Its this damn illness. It screws with you, messes you up. Even makes people around you feel intolerable. I am suffering now. "Riding out the storm" if that's what is called. An intense anxiety and pain in my chest like a dagger plunging in my heart. Its so messed up what this does. It is so unbelievably painful. There are voices of self doubt in my head. There are voices of worthlessness, hopelessness. But it too shall pass. It always does. Just gotta ride it out. Why do we have to go through this? That I will never know. Great post! I am glad you are doing better