My mother says so much that I'm useless that I'm starting to think that maybe I actually am. I can't do anything right, I always seem to be in the way, never helping, just a burden.

I wish I had a strong enough mindset not to let these things affect me. But it's hard when I seem to be made of self hatred.

I need to work on being independent and relying less on others. I can only count on myself.