There is something wrong with the way I see things.

My eyes...

I don't know what's wrong, but I am easily attracted to one's beauty. Especially their eyes. When I set gaze upon their eyes, sometimes their whole face just comes together, and they're beautiful. I do not begin to fantasize at the moment. I often try to dismiss it and think about the reality of them, maybe they're just messed up, terrible, no-good to my life.

However, this has happened in the past, and it became a severe infatuation, which led to me being the weird girl. I'm in a new school now though, and I can start over.

I have a crush on this guy at school.

I happened to look at him.

And our eyes met a few times.

I thought he was cute, but I tried to shrug it off and say it wouldn't go anywhere for me.

Then I started talking to him, and I began to take interest.

I found him to be very playful and funny, and he was very laid-back.

Before I was playful and funny, and then I became even more playful around him.

Though I've been keeping my distance at the same time, trying not to follow him everywhere. I am very cautious.

I don't want to weird him out or anything.

I gave him a hug, and he's been wanting to give me hugs ever since.

I keep making eye contact with him a lot, not staring though. Just looking at him from time to time.

I don't want this to become a bad habit.