I think my problem is really different and that is why I can't seem to find answers. Sure I'm sensitive on some levels (and not so much on others), I assume from having Asperger's and ADD. Despite this I don't really feel life has manhandled me much. I was never abused and the only thing that happened was I was quite bullied in the higher grades in school, but that happened after my "personality" developed, not before. The only thing that really "happened" in my childhood was that I got very aware quite early of life and death and the big picture of things, it quite freaked me out, but I don't know if I can "blame" identity issues on this.

I should add I don't have things like missing time, having things I didn't know I bought, I don't have friends telling me I have been "different" or anything like that. It takes me effort to be aware of my surroundings, I drift into myself quite easily. I remember being around 8 years old and friends had different taste in music, and I felt I should probably also identify more with one type of music which I did. I just didn't do it the way people normally choose, like Do I like this? I sort of pictured different "me's" in the future, like if they were already there, and it was like an older version of me decided for me, even if I knew they didn't exist yet, and my choices would make this future me come true or not. My choice needed to fit the one I wanted to be, but I still have no idea who really chose, because this identity had not been created yet...

Sounds weird? Maybe that is why I don't bring that stuff up with people.

Sometimes I feel that the different "me's" which are ALL ME (so there is absolutely no split in personality) are a result of me accepting in very much into my identity, and when I carry two conflicting opinions I can't suppress one (I assume this is what normals do), but all me is allowed to be there. But just conflicting ideas don't have to fight all the time, I might have split them up so groups of ideas that match become different parts and can play nicely together. It might be as simple as having conflicting ideas, just that with me, they group up and becomes a "personality".

Or maybe people's ideas of themselves are just lies. And I'm living closer to the truth...