Hi anotherus3r...

I don't have any great words of wisdom...I wish I did.

It really sounds as if you know that you need to be true to yourself and not try so hard to be what you think other people want. Kudos for that--it's something that many people never get...

Are you seeing a counselor? Your college should have one and I urge you to take advantage. It's not so good to spend so much time with your own thoughts, as you know.

As far as the dating game goes, I'm REALLY no help. I do believe that things happen when you least expect them to. Perhaps you could focus on your school work? Join some clubs?

Please be kind to yourself, keep posting, and know that there are wonderful people (here and elsewhere) that are willing to listen.