Today is the first session in months that I didn't cry!!! And what's funny, I'm actually really depressed right now. But the depression is actually welcomed after 2 months of extreme anxiety.

She did almost make me cry though. She tried to get me to talk about my Pdoc. I kept trying to dodge her questions. She felt victorious because she was able to get me to talk a little bit about it.

My T agrees with me now: this DBT group is a joke. I'm not going to get much out of it. So she finally gave me permission to use my DBT workbook. She told me to do the sections in the workbook that correlate to the group. We agreed that when I can afford it, I will go to a real DBT group run by someone she knows of.

And I think I'm getting my own car Thursday! I'm so nervous because it will be my first car that I actually own. I'm worried about the responsibility and the fiances, but I'm excited for my independence. My T is going to be so excited. This is a major step for me and have been working towards this for 2 years. I quit driving after a traumatic accident (was side-swiped on the freeway during rush hour and the car spun out of control ). Next week will probably be the first time I drive to my T alone...it's a 40min drive! Maybe my fiance will come with me still a few times