I talked about my symptoms of borderline personality disorder and tecnically i have this disorder by now, but my psychiatristic doesn't think it's really helpful to rotulate and say ''here, you have this and this and this'' and he was wondering for times that i might have this disorder but he said to me that he thought it was better for me to discover by myself. I don't know what this really means and i was a bit mad at him today because of a borderline crisis with paranoia.

And i think he MIGHT know that i have transference for him! see, i made some texts about my borderline symptoms and i wanted to make the text less formal or i don't know, i just thought of joking about some things for not be so depressive and i wrote ''hey don't think about that in sexual and romantically way humf''

and he said something like that: i think you might wrote that to escape from these thoughts or to not think about these thoughts

and that was not so wow but just to add:

Me: you forgot that i made my pedagogue ''fall in love'' with you
Him: But i've just talked with her on the cellphone
Me: Oh, i don't know, maybe she thinks your voice is sexy
Him: Thanks for the compliment*Laughs* (he said that to me, myself)