Hello all I think this is the 3rd time posting a sob story spread months apart. Recently I've gone to the doctor and they gave a generic lexapro (right spelling maybe?) And I finally asked my parents for a therapist gave a vague anxiety/stress reason because of college. Though going through both for about a month has seemingly wrecked me I have no motivation to do anything because I'm broken and I'm not worth the work to be fixed. A small part of me felt like throwing in the towel and calling it quits which for some reason didn't really freak me out. I guess I just don't know what to do anymore. I've got lofty life goals that are impossible to accomplish (doctor) and I'm generally sick of everything. I've even started giving up on food since I don't feel it's worth the effort to eat and have resumed SI today after a week or so of being clean. So I guess I don't even have a clue why I'm even posting kinda just felt like its something to vent at. Also I'm certain there are plenty of grammar errors since I'm on my phone, didn't feel like getting up to type.