Yeah my doctor kept saying if I had a broken leg they wouldnt hold it against me.

As the pressure is on more until my deadlines hit and pass, the need to SH deepens. I have something very specific in a thought loop in my head.

I have the psychotherapy pdoc tomorrow. My guess is that she would suggest hospital again... I just really dont want to let my partner down. He wanted to do so much on his time off. He says if I need to go to hospital he will be supportive but then many of my friends say that I'll be fine once I go away and weddings are so important.

Who else has had experiences? It might help convince me either way.