Hi I am new here I have been diagnosed with bipolar I have anexity and panic attacks as well I haven started my medication yet bc I am breastfeeding still but I was prescribed Effexor my husband is few up with my mood swings I'm scared I am going to lose him due to my disease my life is a constant roller coaster i feel all alone and feel like nobody understand what I am going through please help I am scared to tell any of my friends that I am bipolar bc I don't want to lose them as well sometimes I feel like a freak :/ my family tries to support me I think I'm draining every one and feel like a burden sometimes I feel like my husband is better off leaving me and my son bc I can't even control this disease and he wouldn't have to put up with my manic and mood swings it's just a really hard