Hi Sky, glad you are here. I remember postpartum and breast feeding. That was 12 years ago for me. My husband couldn't see just how bad it was for me; he was too busy working. For me, being undiagnosed and without the care of a support system was a bad place to be. At least when you are diagnosed and you educate yourself, you learn to read signs of what is happening with your body, and you have an explanation that lets you know you not 'making up' what you are feeling. I was diagnosed last year but LORD, I had bipolar disorder then too.

I'm sitting here thinking about how helpful it would have been for me to 1)at least know why I my shifts were so sensitive 2) have a mental health provider or two to contact 3)have a support group that was accessible to me at a moments notice (like this one). My insurance company now has a managed care provider with case managers who can check in with me weekly, help coordinate services and provide linkages to resources that are specific to my needs. I automatically qualified for a case manager bc I had a new BP dx. With my situation, I was able to call my person as well (during the day). I used that resource quite a bit until I was able to get to my first appt with my pdoc. You might want to check to see if that is a resource for you as well.

I've never been one for large groups of friends. Get too many and they become superficial relationships anyway. What makes a good mom is doing everything in YOUR POWER to stay healthy for your baby.

I agree with Hooligan. People who love you will ebb and flow with the tides. They will understand you as just "being Sky." Reality, being oneself what any human can bring to the table. Anything otherwise is smoke and mirrors.

Hang in there Sky. Your baby will thank you for it. Check in often and let us know how you are doing. ((()))