So, I've been off my antipsychotic and my mood stabilizer for several days now. Yesterday I was pretty euphoric, had a lot of energy, and a ton of creative and interesting thoughts, a lot of which were pretty amusing to me and I found myself laughing a lot more.

In a way, I almost feel like I've gotten my mind back.

On the flip side, one minute I was laughing to myself about something and the next I had the sudden urge to throw myself into traffic. Then the next I was smiling again.

But I felt so good until I crashed from exhaustion since I'd woken up at 3:30 in the morning.

I felt terrified of losing control and completely wonderful about how my mind felt like it was making so many connections the way it used to. But I also felt very blurry, if that makes sense.

How do you know if how you're feeling is a result of going off the med(s), or if how you're feeling led you to the decision to go off the med(s)?

I imagine you could look at what initially made you decide to go off them, but I don't know if that gives a complete picture. I imagine there are after-effects of going off meds (obviously), but are those side-effects of some sort of withdrawal, or are they the result of brain chemistry returning to its natural state?