I'm sorry you are dealing with this. I'm definitely not a professional and I don't know a name for this but it seems you need to create new reactions to stimuli. This is what CBT is all about. Have you tried this form of therapy? It's like right now it feels involuntary because your brain is used to doing these motions/responses to the information you take in...CBT would help you create new responses and break the pattern. It would, at the very least, give you control over your actions...so you would have a choice whether to do the compulsion or not.