Just a positive note.

My SO is bipolar. Diagnosed 17 years ago. We made it. It can be difficult, and has resulted in several break ups and reconciliations. That is not all her. I have my own issues. It is a soup of emotions and moods that is definitely a roller coaster ride.

In fact, right now we are going through a bad phase. The problem being the SO is that I have to allow for the fact that not everything she says, she means.

I took it very badly at first. I was young, and especially ignorant about mental health. I made many mistakes as it concerns her. I feel guilty to this day.

I wish I could go back and change my reaction. I lost myself in online gaming. She slept most of the time. I ... I wish I could do it again.

I hope your husband is better than I was.