Honestly, I would suggest getting into therapy. Not because I think you are nuts, or wierd, or anything like that....but just to learn HOW to have an emotionally intimate relationship. Talking to a T can really help people figure who they are, how they feel about things, what they want out of life, etc. It can be very important for people who are not comfortable with discussing feelings. IMO, in order to some day have a healthy relationship...you'll need to work on talking about how you feel, what you want, etc.

Wishing you much happiness,

em