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Originally Posted by angelicgoldfish05
It's time. I want to move on from this.I want to get better. I am sick of this running my life and taking up so much time and energy. I want a better life for myself. I want a chance at making the things I want (not things that are forced on me or taken away from me) happen.
I want to move past this - the loss of my ex t, loss of my job, the suicide attempts... I'm done going over it all. I just want to move on. I know I've done some bad things in life, and I've had some bad things happen. I've had some things happen to me that were cruel, abusive and unfair. But I still survived and I still believe I deserve a shot at having a good life and reaching a few of my hopes dreams and goals.
So how do you let it all go? How do you start over? How do you move on and move past everything?
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I think you're already doing the first step. You're sick of it and wanting to move on.
I think you have to forgive yourself and love yourself. Sounds cheesy. But you forgive yourself and you love yourself and you tap into some deep inner resolve and then, one step at a time, you move forward.
You go to work. You pay your bills. You save money. You meet people. You put yourself out there. You make an effort to smile. You make an effort to be kind.
You cut out people who drain you. You surround yourself with people who are healthy and who build you up.
You build up others, rather than cut them down. You ignore the pettiness, the shallowness.
You take up physical activity with regularity. You exercise. You eat well. You treat your body well.
And life happens. And some days suck. And other days, you see a sunset and you think, "I'm thankful for this life of mine. It's not perfect. I'm not perfect. But it's the only life I've got and I accept it with all its warts and hair, and I'll make the best of it."
I think that's the most that any of us can ask for. Especially those of us who were abused or suffered early on, or who don't have good families or riches to fall back on. But peace in one's life, in itself, is a really worthy goal.