right at this moment i feel despair
what to do, need to get somewhere
where the feeling is calm
i know i have it right here in my palm
fighting for self worth
on a board, tryng to surf
to self love and contentment
finding only hate and resentment
clawing at sanity, searching for a step
to drag myself up from the cold clammy depth
heart in my boots as i look for a light
crying so loud it shatters the night.
give me a blanket to soften the landing
because i keep falling just no good at standing
grasping at roots, trying to climb out
screaming inside, no one hears me shout
lost and afraid. lonely to the core
a knife cuts right through, you've heard this before.
sleep is the past, my bed lies unkempt
as for this life, i think i'm exempt.

broken, scared, coping mechanism gone.
so sorry so sorry so sorry.i think i've lost it.

jin