Hi ktp. Thank you for the warm reply. You are right about finding a lot of references online ( that is how I found this site ). Psychology used to be my major and the reason I dropped it was because I could easily convince myself that I had a number of disorders. So looking this up on the internet is a bit like a mine field. I'm going to go about it slowly and try to be as logical and rational as possible. As for therapy, I think I do need it, in fact I know I do. This is going to sound silly but I feel like if I start to go then whatever is wrong with me will have won. I don't want to think that I'm not strong enough to sort this out and also it would make me face the truth which is still hard for me to accept. It must be uncomfortable to be face to face with someone and explain to them things which you yourself can barely put into words.
I think being here will help me overcome such fears. It's a step at least and I'm at that point where I am sick of the fear and may just have to see someone about it.

Thank you again.