Thank you all for your replies... It helps to have someone listening... I am seeing a therapist, and she's pushing me for group therapy. I'm no good at in person groups, so we'll see how it goes. We are still trying to piece together the events of the night she died... It's so hard to even think about... We still don't have a cause of death, or any information... They think it was alcohol related, but her BAC was only 0.05. I don't see how such a tiny amount could kill anyone... I'm becoming more and more amazed at how dangerous alcohol really is... And weed is illegal??? What are we thinking??