Okay, um... I'm not really sure how to describe this, so I'll just tell what I know.
I am envious of... a few different species of animal. I have an awkward hatred for human tendencies of aggression, greed, lust, and most of all, prejudgment. I have defined, in my own mind, the thin line between a person and a human. I like people just fine, but humans... I despise them. Primates in general, actually. This sums it up pretty well:
"No primate makes a good pet. That includes humans. We and our cousins--the gorillas, the chimpanzees, the monkeys, including the baboons--are a rather uncivilized lot, fiercely proud and independent, but at the same time treacherous, greedy, aggressive and cruel."
- Dead Men Do Tell Tales , William R. Maples and Michael Browning
Mostly I am envious of wolves and certain birds, namely crows and ravens. Primarily wolves, which I have come to pretty much idolize. However, I would not call myself obsessive on a large scale. I respect and understand the wolf, and I feel heavily connected to it, due to our being misunderstood. This is the same case with the crows and ravens, however on a smaller scale than the wolf.
So I guess in the long run, all I'm really asking is:
Is it included in a disorder to feel a psychologic similarity and/or hatred to a species of the animal kingdom?
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