For us, living in the present moment is something too difficult. Instead, we are used to spending a lot of time worrying about the future, particularly about our depression's future development. Sometimes, regrets and recreation of past events hurt our souls, as well. Both, past and future, are source of immense pain for our minds. If you have the opportunity, try to approach a spiritual practice that can help you to focus more on the present moment. Together with therapy and meds, this learning is helping me a lot.
I am sending you a hug