Life is just getting to tough as of late. I just don't know anymore. I am staying on top of my meds & therapy but (there is that word seems to get me in a lot of trouble at times). Life is going to get a lot tougher in a few weeks so I better figure out something. Doing something for family but it is going to be a delicate situation for a few months. I am scared so I know I feel like throwing in the towel but also know I cannot do that. Even though I know I am doing the right thing I am worried it could end up making certain relationships get worse instead of better there is just know other option at this point. I know worrying will not get me anywhere but I keep doing it. I wish I could say I am strong enough to handle this but not sure I am. I just keep rambling on and for most of you this makes no sense I really don't feel comfortable with giving the details at this time. I can say thank you to everyone for being here. PC has so much been a life line at times for me.